I am Lonely

I feel like I am living underground.  I am of a world where nothing makes sense to those who walk above me.  When I try to exist as a "normal" individual coping with the nonsense in my life, I inevitably stumble and make even more mistakes that add to the already stigmatized feelings that I carry.  My emotions are all over the place and I say things that I later regret.  I am selfish.  I want to go back underground where all is safe, and quiet, and secure.  Where no human can touch me and no event can topple me.